Today is truly a special day.  Today is 888 - August is the 8th month, it is the 8th day, and 2016 adds up to 8.  8 is all about material satisfaction.

Stasis

Definition of homeostasis

1. :  a relatively stable state of equilibrium or a tendency toward such a state between the different but interdependent elements or groups of elements of an organism, population, or group

The state of homeostatis is a place of comfort.  It is to be a rest.  It is not where growth and learning take place.  Just as I don't want to always be in a state of flux and growth, I don't want to always be at rest.

Survived and Smarter

I got way to worked up over the September 23rd end-of-the-world hysteria.  It was a mistake.  I see that now.  It is easy to get carried away with conspiracy theory and miss the point.  The conspiracy theorists are right and they are wrong.  There is kernels of truth in every conspiracy theory.  But there is also an agenda behind some and maybe all of them.

Watch and wait.  If the theorist is selling something like survival gear, take their advice to prepare for adverse circumstances with a grain (a BIG grain) of salt.  If they can scare you, they can sell you a solution. So-called religion also does this.  They lay out a certain course of destruction unless you drink their particular version of Kool-Aid.  If a religion says they are the only way to know God, they are deceivers.  If a religion teaches hate for any other group, they are deceivers. Be wary.

Manifesting thoughts

Thoughts are essentially electrical packets.  Thoughts can be transmitted like radio signals but much much stronger.  Is it any wonder that what we think about is what happens?  We are manifesting our thoughts.  It's just another restatement of the old adage: "Be careful what you wish for."

Success in Life

What is success?  When I was younger success was easier to define.  Good job.  Own your own home.  But now it's more difficult for me.  I think it comes down to making peace with your viewpoint of the concept of "God."

God is such a loaded topic.  God is a business in our current world.  You have to look outside the culture.  Look outside the matrix.

God is source.  God is neither male or female but in both in balance.  God is energy, vibration.  God will not drain you of who you are.  God will not use you for gain.

How do you make peace with God?  That is the question, my friends.

What if...

What if everything we have known is a lie?  Our religion.  Our government. The wars we thought were real?  Some people call it conspiracy theory crazies.  Some people call it waking up.  I am 58 years old.  I've been waking up since 2001.  Sometimes I'd like to go back to sleep.

Conspiracy theories everywhere

I admit I'm a bit of a conspiracy theorist.  I listened to this guy for two hours yesterday.

http://beforeitsnews.com/israel/2015/08/jade-helm-this-could-get-me-killed-09012015-confessions-of-a-veteran-2453788.html

It's a long listen but the crux of it is this: Isreal is not our friend.  Isreal has been selling our military technology to China and Russia. AND THE MILITARY AND GOVERNMENT KNEW AND KEPT DOING IT.

We are not living in Mayberry anymore.

Evolution

Not the Darwin theorem, personal evolution.  How do you evolve from a girl who believes as she has been told to a crone who questions everything?  Slowly.  LOL

It's taken me 58 years but I no longer believe what I have been told.  The truth has to resonate with the divine spark inside of me.  I have to be able to believe that it is true.

Not all voices that speak to you are wanting your highest good.  Discern.  All beings on a higher vibration are not necessarily equivalent to the Source of All.  Discern.

Is this the apocalypse?

I listen to talk radio.  Quite a bit of talk radio.  I particularly like the programs that air in the middle of the night.  I don't actually listen to them in the middle of the night.  I listen via podcast while I work.

Talk radio is always interesting but lately there has been a very dark turn in all of the shows I listen to.  They are all saying "The End is Near."  It's easy to get carried away with wondering if I need to stockpile food and weapons.  Do I need a bug-out bag?  Do I need a plan to meet up with my loved ones in some supposedly rural safe place where we can live as hunter-gatherers?  This generates anxiety.

Will Planet X cause massive earthquakes and disruption?  Is there an alien disclosure going to happen in November that will crash the financial systems of the world?  Will BRIK crash Europe and the Americas?  Since Saturn is now in Scorpio, is the end near?  Will there be a huge disruption as the procession of equinoxes change from the Era of Pisces to the Era of Aquarius?

I would like to not survive the apocalypse and then I don't have to deal.

I Don't Want To

No is a complete sentence.  Do you want to __________? No.  I don't  have to give anyone a reason  Unless you are my boss.  My boss gets a reason.  Everyone else? Not so much.

I have a finite amount of energy to expend during a day.  I get to choose how I spend that energy.  I heard a comic talking about his F%^&-It list.  It's like a Bucket List only it's stuff I'm never going to do.

My F&*(-It List

1.  I'm not eating shrimp, salmon, or crawfish.
2.  I'm not riding a roller coaster.
3.  I'm not going to a Wagnerian opera.
4.  I'm not going to join a church.
5.  I'm not drinking to excess ever again.
6.  I'm not dyeing my hair or ever getting a perm.
7.  I'm not going to a nail salon.
8.  I'm never wearing panty hose ever.
9.  I'm not going scuba diving or snorkeling.

I can only think of 9 but I'm sure I can add to this list.

You Cause Your Own Pain

This was an unhappy surprise to me.  Any disease, injury, ache/pain, we  have attracted to ourselves.  So my rheumatoid arthritis is my fault.  I rejected this idea for many years.  I stopped reading Deepak Chopra because he said this.  It has taken awhile for me to face the truth.  I caused my chronic disease.

That is not good news to anyone who suffers.  The victim mentality is more appealing to sufferers.  "I didn't do anything, I was just struck down in the prime of life.  Poor me"  I addressed my RA with western medicine - a handful of pills.  Then I signed up for a mediumship class.

In mediumship class we were taught that everything, every little thing, happens for our greater good.  I attracted whatever it is to myself to learn a lesson.  I also learned that for the most part I lived in the head.  I didn't occupy my whole body.  My teacher said that part of the reason my RA progressed was because I wasn't present in my body   The most important lesson I learned from my teacher is that if I caused it, I can fix it.  Now, THAT is good news.  

Louise Hay has written several books about this very topic.  My favorite is Heal Your Life.  Through her work she has identified the meaning behind many pains and diseases.  She encourages each of us to be our own medical intuit.  Every pain MEANS something.  It's a message.  I'm going to try listening.

According to Louise Hay rheumatoid arthritis is caused by  "Deep criticism of authority. Feeling very put upon."  Ever feel that way?  I am deeply critical of, well, pretty much everything around me.  This is something that I want to get out of life.  Hay recommends the affirmation: "I am my own authority. I love and approve of myself. Life is good." I have not been a believer of affirmations but I am trying the Tube of Light and Violet Flame so I'll try this too.

As I sit here today, I have on a foot brace and can only walk haltingly.  What does that mean? Problems with the ankle indicates inflexibility and guilt.  Ankles represent the abililty to receive pleasure.  Check your symptoms here  So I can't tell you that I've conquered my problems and I am healthy and happy.  What I can say - I am a Work in Progress.

Much Love.

What kind of year is 2015 going to be numerology speeking?

Numerology is based on the teachings of Pythagoras.  Really.  That same guy from Algebra and Geometry class was the leader of a mystic movement.  They don't teach that in high school math class or I might have paid more attention.    

Pythagoras was a Greek philosopher who was born around 571 BC in Samos, Greece.   He developed a philosophy based on mathematics.  He postulated that everything in the universe was based on numbers.  He didn't write anything down so not too much survived.   He believed that if one devoted one's life to the study of math and science can relieve one from the Wheel of Birth - i.e. successive reincarnations.   Certain types of numerology was derived from his teachings.

In Numerology to determine what kind of year it's going to be we add the numbers of the year - 2+0+1+5=8.  So 2015 is a year of 8.

Eight relates to wealth, abundance and prosperity.  Also inner wisdom and self-sufficiency.  Of course with the positive there is always a shadow side.  The shadow side of 8 is domineering, greedy and smug superiority.

With Eight there is no half-way - it's either limitation or freedom, leader or burnout.  Eight sees the big picture and has a strong driving force to achieve goals.  Eight has a large capacity for hard work and drive to succeed.

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2. Next time, I'll talk about how a Personal Year interacts with the Eight.

why I am no longer a Christian

2015 is the year that I come clean.  I am no longer a Christian.  It's been coming on for several years.  I still believe in Jesus.  I still believe in a Divine Power.  I just no longer can identify myself as a Christian.

I no longer can confidently believe that Christianity is the only viable option.  I never understood people who said they were spiritual but not religious.  I thought they just didn't want to get along with people encountered at church.  Or they wanted to sleep in on Sunday morning. However I now understand. I  think that if Jesus or Buddha or Mohammad visited the earth today they would agree -- religion has been misinterpreted and co-opted by greed.  I choose to no longer participate.

I tried many churches in many denominations and some without denominations,  I accept some of the responsibility.  I have participated in the gossip that will divide a group.  I have competed to be the best Christian,  I have held leaders in too high esteem as to participate in the cult of personality.  I have wanted to fit in so badly that I abdicated my responsibility to devise my own opinions,  But I have woken up.

This is my journey,

Post Christian

I was raised in a Methodist church - a lovely small town church with loving, caring gentle people.  When I toddled off to college I became attracted to a more evangelical type experience.  I loved the emotion and passion.  I loved the black-and-white of the issues.  I thrived.

After college I moved to a very large city and became involved in various churches, smaller and finally superlarge.  I reveled in the activities and the thrill of the busyness.  I married and converted to Catholic as my husband was a cradle Catholic who was not open to conversion.  We raised children who grew up and left home.  During that stage of life, I was focused on the home and family and lost touch with the comings-and-goings of the church.

Suddenly I was no longer anyone's example. I could be whatever I wanted to be.  I quit going to the Catholic church for various and sundry reasons.  What I found was that God was much bigger and personal for me outside of the church.

I met the Holy Spirit.  Not speaking in tongues, not in the words of any preacher or author, not within the building or fellowship of a church.  I met the Holy Spirit inside myself.  Still and quiet. Love and acceptance.  Freedom and security.  Knowledge and peace.  I don't use the name Holy Spirit.  For me that name is tied to a traditional construct.  The one called God by some, Allah by some, Jehovah by some, I call Source. This is my journey

Times they are a changin'

Time marches on with a certain relentlessness.  I don't feel older but I am.  I look around me at work and I'm old enough to be most people's mom. Yet inside me, I still feel young and vital.  When I look in a mirror, I remember that I am not young but that I am still vital.

Age allows you a certain perspective.  Truths that you really believed were true and turning out to be not so certain.  Things "set in stone" are found to really be set in shifting sand.

Ordained

Remember Chris the DJ on Northern Exposure?  He answered an ad in Rolling Stone to be ordained.  I just did an impulsive thing.  I filled out a form and now I'm ordained by the Universal Life Church.  Where the two tenets of faith is to promote the freedom of religion and to do that which is right.

Lent - A Different Perspective

It's Lent.  Again.  Last year I gave up Puritan Work Ethic.  I didn't do so good.  I might as well as given up Diet Coke.  It was just that hard.  Being idle for me is like holding my breath.

This year I'm going to try again.  But I'm going to go about it a little differently.  I'm going to try to have a Quiet Mind.  My mind is always talking to me.  It won't let me sleep.  It won't let me do one thing at a time.  It's always chattering away like a hyper monkey.  It's not saying mean things anymore.  Thank God.  It's not barking or roaring. It could be worse.

My week

Sucky blogger

I just realized why I'm a sucky blogger.  I'm ADHD when it comes to interests.  I don't have a single focused cause or hobby.  I'm all over the place.

Some days I'm interested in conspiracy theories, other days it's quilting.  I have enough beads to start a bead store but I'm not making jewelry right now.

Right now, I'm just hanging out and enjoying life.

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